Now, what kind of spiritual guide would I be, if I did not need to take some GIANT leaps of faith to step into my own divinity as part of my experience?
I have been so inspired by others, and I love hearing stories of triumph, beating all odds, creating a dream life-style while absolutely NOT apologizing for any of it! It took me some time to realize, many of the teachers and healers I so admire, had their own journeys to get where they are, and no journey into living the life you've always wanted comes without stepping outside your comfort zone, encountering some major inconveniences, and most likely, looking into what may seem like a mountain of impossible obstacles. Not to mention, a bunch of well-, or not-so-well-intended folks around you insisting that you must have to give up something to get what you want, or that you simply cannot have what you're after, or that the life you dream of is only achievable for some people--'some' meaning, 'someone other than you, or 'us''.
Well, I've done it before. Taken a leap of faith, that is, where it felt like I was looking into a thick veil of molasses, knowing in my heart, it was a step in a direction that would make my heart sing, yet feeling nearly paralyzed by the fear of what might be on the other side of that veil! The complete unknown. Yes, I was uncomfortable in my life. Yes, I was broke. Yes, I was surrounded by people who did not resonate with me. Yes, I felt like I had been throwing all my gifts away and that I simply had to do something to take a step in the direction of the life I wanted. But wow, talk about the ego giving a thousand excuses and reasons that taking that first step might kill me.
Well, it didn't. I took that step. And my life got about 8000% percent better in a matter of 5 days time. I went from having no car, a crappy job, and feeling fed up with turning down opportunities and activities, to being hired for a much better job, making friends, cultivating my gifts, and getting a car. This was two years ago.
Since then, I've had a baby. The most wonderful teacher about how to be fully in the present moment! It's the two of us, creating a wonderful adventure together. I learned quickly after he was born, how very little I was willing to compromise on my values as a mother. And in that place of being completely unwilling to settle, I worked with a dear healer-friend, and got in touch with my deep desire to work as an energy healer, an intuitive. I have always been psychic, but this was the first time I identified how much I wanted to serve in this way.
I've been so blessed to get to stay at home with my baby. During his first year, I was offered a position where I could work from home. Then, a friend offered to let us move into the extra rooms of his house, and house-sit while he was away. This allowed me to stay home with babesters during the day, and work on my business in the evenings after his bedtime--without the stress of paying rent. Things changed, and it's now time to move out. No idea where we will go, my business is new and in development, bills are piling up, of course, my car registration is due this very same month!
Inconvenient? For sure. Divine? Absolutely. Guided with love all around us as well as support from a non-physical team? Yes -- and I can't imagine doing this without that support! Thank you, thank you, thank you! Soooooo, instead of freaking out, staring endlessly into the pile of possible complaints, fears, seeming obstacles, and impossibilities...we are putting our things in storage, and going on a road trip! Falling in love with life all over again, meeting with friends, feeling a wonderful sense of freedom and adventure, and following guidance and taking action the whole way. And I know the perfect place that is getting ready for us, will show up at exactly the perfect time.
Off we go!
Love and blessings,
Ellen Lorraine Niemeier
P.S. Had an adventure you'd like to share? Post in the comments below!