We left St. Louis 2 weeks ago. We put all our things into storage, got a mailbox, and packed up the car and hit the road!
We got to visit friends in Chicago, Illinois, then we were off to Colorado. We stayed in Omaha on the way to friends in Parker, then up to Fort Collins, and today we are in Durango—which feels like a real adventure because I haven’t been here since I was a little girl.
Amazing how many things start to come together, how many doors open when you just do things. And I was so nervous to take this leap of faith and sort out where we will live by going to stay with friends and leaving where we were without knowing where we will live next, but now that we’re doing it, it’s amazing how many people have told me they wish they could do what I’m doing. I have had plans for no more than a few days at a time, and it’s been liberating and also affirming of faith, as we have had a safe place to stay every single night of our trip.
This journey has provided so many lovely reminders of how many good friends I have and how much love is around us all the time. I’m so grateful it’s impossible to express it adequately. It’s also been astounding to see how adaptable Antonio is! Bedtime has been moved around a bunch, we’ve been in different friends’ homes and hotels and in the car a LOT and he’s been so excited for whatever new space, new people, the joy of getting to eat a baby rice cake handed back to him by mommy in the car, just joy. Every second. He is the epitome of living in the moment and enjoying it to the fullest.
The mountain air feels so good.
The biggest challenge I have is to not guess as to how it will work out in the end. And I’ve had so many reminders to keep the faith. So here we are, in this lovely town I have been wanting to check out as a possible home for years, continuing our adventure. And each time we’ve gotten in the car, I’ve had just enough $$ to get us to wherever we were going. And yet we’ve had plenty.
Love and blessings from Ellen and Antonio <3
Lovely evening outside when the rain broke into just a slight drizzle.
Got shoes on and Antonio carefully got on his side to go down the step to the porch and then after tapping a couple pebbles together, off he went! First stop: trailer parked across the street.
He touched all the tires, checked out any wiring he could find, crouched down to look underneath, and tapped on any metal parts while giggling.
Dance break in the street. Stopped in the street to dance, first fancy tap dance style, followed by bending his knees over and over and bouncing. And giggling. Can’t forget the giggling. :-)
He takes off down the street on the sidewalk, squeals with excitement as we pass our neighbor’s house who has doggies (but were not outside at the time) and he takes a detour to walk on the wet leaves in the grass. Up the next street we go, stepping on the leaves, up to the house with a witch hanging in a tree for Halloween. Squealing and breathing with excitement, he goes up to the witch to look at her and feel her legs. I pick him up so he can see her and admire her, while keeping the neighbor’s lights and yard intact. ;-)
Back up the street we go. Toddler-man Antonio crouches on the sidewalk, and takes a moment to feel the wet concrete. Feels the concrete, looks at his hands, rubs them together, repeat. Wipes hands on pants, off we go.
Squealing, he takes off to our next door neighbor’s house, and runs up to the water spout. He crouches down, watching the rain water drip from it, and puts his hands underneath to catch some in his hands and feel it. Bliss.
One more dance break on the sidewalk, followed by splashing some puddles in the street with his hands, and he climbed back up the porch, into the house, where he sat down waiting for me to take off his shoes, jacket and wet pants. Baby legs and free-style play time!
Ellen Lorraine Niemeier
Lately, seems I've been hearing about how we are here on this planet to experience pain and suffering. That our 'purpose' is to experience this -- in order to learn and grow.
We certainly can evolve from painful circumstances. And we can certainly practice forgiveness to set ourselves free, and transcend the effects of trauma...
But is that REALLY necessary to evolve? Do we really come from the Ether, pure Spirit, the essence of Divine Love, to simply feel awful for an incarnated physical experience, then finally, as a reward for this craptastic existence, get to die?! And then, and only then, go back to the wholeness of Spirit?
My darlings. No. We are each Divine Beings of Spirit. What if we are here to bring the Light of Truth into this incarnation? What if we were to live in alignment with who we are truly--the unique, perfect, Soul-flake that we are, and enjoy every minute of it?
The truth is, we can have a peaceful, happy, joyous experience in the physical plane! And still come from and go back to the Divine formless substance -- as always. We can experience ourselves as the beautiful individuals that we are! We can live in harmony with the natural cycles of Mother Earth, and also in harmony with ourselves--our own pace, expression, attractions, interests, gifts, etc. And STILL evolve!
We are, and always have been Divine beings. We each have beautiful gifts and energies, that, when expressed fully, bring us great joy, ease and abundance. We each also bring experience with us, that can affect our present-day circumstances profoundly. And the beauty is that by looking within, and garnering the right support, we can bring consciousness to what is no longer serving us from those parts of ourselves. We step out of feeling separate from everyone else, and victimized, and step into a place of choice and creation. Our beautiful creation. Into the flow of our natural river of energy. And in so doing, we inspire others to express themselves at Soul-level, too.
Love and blessings my darling Soul-flakes.
Ellen Lorraine Niemeier
Now, what kind of spiritual guide would I be, if I did not need to take some GIANT leaps of faith to step into my own divinity as part of my experience?
I have been so inspired by others, and I love hearing stories of triumph, beating all odds, creating a dream life-style while absolutely NOT apologizing for any of it! It took me some time to realize, many of the teachers and healers I so admire, had their own journeys to get where they are, and no journey into living the life you've always wanted comes without stepping outside your comfort zone, encountering some major inconveniences, and most likely, looking into what may seem like a mountain of impossible obstacles. Not to mention, a bunch of well-, or not-so-well-intended folks around you insisting that you must have to give up something to get what you want, or that you simply cannot have what you're after, or that the life you dream of is only achievable for some people--'some' meaning, 'someone other than you, or 'us''.
Well, I've done it before. Taken a leap of faith, that is, where it felt like I was looking into a thick veil of molasses, knowing in my heart, it was a step in a direction that would make my heart sing, yet feeling nearly paralyzed by the fear of what might be on the other side of that veil! The complete unknown. Yes, I was uncomfortable in my life. Yes, I was broke. Yes, I was surrounded by people who did not resonate with me. Yes, I felt like I had been throwing all my gifts away and that I simply had to do something to take a step in the direction of the life I wanted. But wow, talk about the ego giving a thousand excuses and reasons that taking that first step might kill me.
Well, it didn't. I took that step. And my life got about 8000% percent better in a matter of 5 days time. I went from having no car, a crappy job, and feeling fed up with turning down opportunities and activities, to being hired for a much better job, making friends, cultivating my gifts, and getting a car. This was two years ago.
Since then, I've had a baby. The most wonderful teacher about how to be fully in the present moment! It's the two of us, creating a wonderful adventure together. I learned quickly after he was born, how very little I was willing to compromise on my values as a mother. And in that place of being completely unwilling to settle, I worked with a dear healer-friend, and got in touch with my deep desire to work as an energy healer, an intuitive. I have always been psychic, but this was the first time I identified how much I wanted to serve in this way.
I've been so blessed to get to stay at home with my baby. During his first year, I was offered a position where I could work from home. Then, a friend offered to let us move into the extra rooms of his house, and house-sit while he was away. This allowed me to stay home with babesters during the day, and work on my business in the evenings after his bedtime--without the stress of paying rent. Things changed, and it's now time to move out. No idea where we will go, my business is new and in development, bills are piling up, of course, my car registration is due this very same month!
Inconvenient? For sure. Divine? Absolutely. Guided with love all around us as well as support from a non-physical team? Yes -- and I can't imagine doing this without that support! Thank you, thank you, thank you! Soooooo, instead of freaking out, staring endlessly into the pile of possible complaints, fears, seeming obstacles, and impossibilities...we are putting our things in storage, and going on a road trip! Falling in love with life all over again, meeting with friends, feeling a wonderful sense of freedom and adventure, and following guidance and taking action the whole way. And I know the perfect place that is getting ready for us, will show up at exactly the perfect time.
Off we go!
Love and blessings,
Ellen Lorraine Niemeier
P.S. Had an adventure you'd like to share? Post in the comments below!